I have seen the doctor this morming (I waited for 6 hours yesterday, but they had too much work with too many people getting sick in the same time and children have priority): he said it can't be swine flu because I shouldn't be able to come to his place but I feel bad whatever...
Most of the time, I feel dizzy, half-awaken, wondering if I will die (I am scared a bit cause I am asthmatic and I have chronic respiratory diseases) and when I am lucid I have strange envy to kill and eat people (cause I blame the rest of the world, normal)...

I am missing Chibi Japan Expo (I paid my ticket so I am angry)!!!
today, I ate sadly on my bed my lunch box I prepared for the exhibition...
I took my day off for that purpose, not to be in my bed alone... And tomorrow we were supposed to do go to the restaurant for birthday...

I support Simone Simmons who seems having the flu too. I hope Epica won't cancel the show of next weekend...

Yesterday I went to a fair dedicated to photography.

My aim was to test lenses and filters for my camera (and buy them possibly)... but Wacom was there.
I tried a bit the Cintiq12WX then they told me there is 10% discount on our products.

And I cried.

And I took my chequebook and I did this stupid cheque.

Well, I guess I am poor now...

And worse, it's too complicated for me to use it! My graphic card was good when I bought my computer, but not anymore. This is tricky, they didn't warn me that I needed a VGA or DVI plug (happily I have a VGA) to use it. I thought it was like the Intuos and USB plug was enough... But not and my card has difficulties to manage the two screens (it was better on the mac where I tried it).
But even with screen troubles, I think I will not regret it (for the moment I try not to cry because of the amount of money).

You know what, I am a poor person but a happy poor one (or will be)!

EDIT: en français. C'est trop la classe, y'a même une pince pour changer les mines du grip pen, ce qui manquait méchamment sur l'Intuos.

I am wondering if all my journal entries are depressing. Well maybe.

I feel like a ghost, I am not really there. My job killed me. I am bored of it: don't like the job, it takes me more than the job time (week-end, vacations and events cancelled because of schedule changes, late evening spent at work...) and it is destroying my health (the classic back and eyes aches but also salmonella, ameba and breakdown). Well, they pay me for that so I can pay the doctors to heal me, but I rather be in better state with less money.

My social life sucks (I see some of my friends -they will recognize themselves- only 3/4 times a year thanks to japanime conventions),

My virtual life sucks too (I am so tired I can't stand the computer screen).
I am not in the mood to do anything except complaining about my job.

So, just to explain why I am not so often here. Because working life killed the other ones.

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Next Kiriban #5000
please do screen capture and send me a note (with a link to the picture of course) or send it to me by mail, I open my mailbox, sometimes.

As said on last blog entry I will work (like most of the people) thursday afternoon and I have a big meeting with a foreign client which I cannot postpone. So I will arrive late, very late and I am sad because I found the idea pretty good (and insane, and expensive too, I wonder how much they paid for the plane tickets).
I really hope that I will find people at 6pm and things will happen (like discussion, presentation and maybe dinner) because going to Paris is always a real expedition and I would be bored if nothing happens (if my sentence is not correct I am sorry but I have always had big troubles with tenses).

Hope to meet new people that day!

[EDIT 2] It was a really good moment. Angelo and Heidi were really nice and I meet many people (I have so much deviant pages to check this evening).
Nothing to do with the subject but I got my tickets for Rammstein show!!! I am happy²!!!

Finally I checked them later because I have social life (also). This was terrific and so good in the same times, I haven't seen so much messages in my message center before (It took me 3 days to win through them...)

Here is my small summary of that evening

So I arrived really late around 5:30 't the same mioment than ~Lemon-Hat but I have had no problem to find the other deviants. My trouble was to do te first step, because I am shy (yes it is true but I work on it). Happily the last session to present us the new improvements of started just half an hour after. Just the time to see the emoticon stress ball, to play with them and to get my name written on a sticker which "Hi, My name is darkgallou" which made the museum entrance woman laugh.

I won't present you the future developments of deviantART because I am sure they will be done the staff better than me. I met ~mateo52 during the presentation but he couldn't stay with us for rest of the evening. If you can read French, go to his page and read his poetry (this is short and good).

I spent the rest of the day with the other deviants and $spyed and $Heidi. We ate at a famous restaurant close to the Museum, Mc Do... Because we were too much to eat elsewhere; This is sad because there were so many cheap Japanese restaurants there (where you can eat for 10€ and you are full after that) but too small.
This has been the occasion to see (but not to try because Angelo forgot his cable) the new Wacom tablet. I discussed with the people around me and it happened that they were -most of them- photographers, *Frequence-Coeur excepted.
I met *ZeldaDreams, *Taitai03, ~frenchhastyle and ~arabesquegrotesque during the dinner, then some people started to move and change seats. So went ¢mindfuckx, =Re-d-D-ot and =0ctans and maybe other people but I am a red fish when dealing with my memory.

Then we moved to a beer bar, during the little walk (which hurt my knee a bit, I remind that I cannot do any sport before August because of my accident) I met ~vlctor and =LeMex who arrived later than me!!! At the bar I tried to discuss a bit with =nekozumi (if I am right) and with =Nirelleth.
Then after a too short moment it was time to go back home. I guided our friends from Belgium to the metro station then I went back home. My day stopped there, full of good memories, too short. I am waiting for Japan Expo now!!!

Work in progress
Kiriban 3333 for ~BrocoliRose finished
Next kiriban 5000 (screen capture by mail, please)

I was bored with the previous entry. I don't play anymore I don't have time nor the mood.
I want holidays!!!
I want time to read all the books I have bought (now there are something like 20 unread books on my desk).
I want peaceful moments to draw my future (one day...) comics.
I want time and place to practice sports...

I want to change my life.

But I am a poor looser and I am so afraid of being unemployed and having no more money that I will go to my work tomorrow doing uninteresting, boring and time-consuming stuff.

Yesterday I read a book and today I felt better. I should read more. I don't think the book is translated in english but it was quite good (even if it is only part I over III). The French title is
L'Alliance des Trois, AutreMonde Livre I by Maxime (or Maxim depending on the editor) Chattam.
And thanks to that reading I know which book I will buy and read as soon as I can go to a bookshop.

EDIT
I wish some happy holidays and a lot of rest.
I will come back next year.

EDIT 2
Holidays arrive but I destroyed my leg (anterior cruciate ligament), so I won't do anything... did I say that some days I hate myself.